Are you waiting on God or Just wanting his answer?

I find myself obsessed on Sunday morning to get to church and find my seat so I can get ready to open my heart to the message of God.  I am at an age in my life where my spirituality is number one in my life.  I was raised in church by my Christian father, who has been the biggest role model in my life.  We went to church every Sunday, even when I did not want to go during my teenage years.  I remember getting a gift of a Bible quote on a plaque at a baby shower from a friend when I was pregnant.  It was Proverbs 22:6 which says Train Up a Child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it.  This verse has stuck with me since that very day because I know if you are raised in church or you make sure you take your children to church there is a better chance of you and them returning to church when you get older or at least that is what has happened to me.  Of course, God never wants us to leave the church because there is where we are most likely to hear his word, but we all do for a while because we grow apart thinking we don’t need to hear that “stuff” all the time but we do.  The biggest most important thing to remember here is that even if you were not raised in church or did not take your children to church there is still a place for you at a local church to come and get to know a God who loves you and wants to change your life for the better.  I believe in God and I believe in the verse Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future and that is what I am waiting on which brings me to my take-a-way from church today:  Are you waiting on God or just waiting on God’s answer?

The message was exactly what I needed to hear.  I have been waiting for some major things in my life to change.  I know everyone has something that is causing them stress but I also know that when we are stressed about something we become narcissistic about it.  I hate to admit it but it is true.  I can say it now out loud because my Preacher said it today which confirmed this must be a normal emotion.  I moved to Charleston 4 years ago.  I was in a lonely place in my life.  My real estate work was going great.  I was so busy but also able to work part time by chance and make a very good living.  I was lonely.  I felt I was going to never find what God wanted me to have living in my small home town.  I felt suffocated.  I started getting close to that dreaded age of 50.  I decided I needed to start looking at my life and trying to figure out what I wanted to do.  I believe at 50 you need to make some important decisions because if you are lucky enough to live to be 100, you realize its all over the hill and on the downward slide from here.  Making decisions about my life was one of those things I felt needed to be done.  I had always wanted to move away from my hometown.  I had never really felt like I belonged there (this is a story for another time). I had been praying to God about what to do.  One night I was awakened in the middle of the night and sat up in bed.  I heard God’s voice tell me to sell all of my belongings and move to Charleston.  I was sure it was him who told me to do this because I was awakened from a deep sleep.  I took this as a sign from God that everything was going to be okay.  So I stepped out in faith (which I had done once before) and began the process.  I have this weird personality.  I always think I have to hire the expert so I hired a Life Coach.  She helped me with the mental process of letting go of my real estate career.  This was a huge deal because if you are self employed you know that your business is how you make your living.  As I said before, I believe in God and I know God has my back so I let go and moved on.  I was more excited about moving and starting my new life than leaving my old one and my career.

When I got to Charleston, which is only 3 hours from my hometown, it was like moving across country.  I have vacationed here so many times during my life but living here and starting over to be self employed was like a slap in the face.  It was not what I had expected.  I had thought that the voice of God telling me to sell all my belongings and move meant everything was going to be wonderful from here on out.  Not true at all!  It was hard.  I encountered many hurtful experiences from people who I had been told I could trust – that I do not want to even remember must less blog about.  I was devastated and lonely and broke.  It has been four years now and things are getting better.  My real estate work has picked up finally, and I am making friends, I found a wonderful church which has saved me from being completely in despair.  I still pray constantly about my financial needs and for God to send me a Christian husband.  I know these things will be answered because God has told me “It will come in the winter”.  Yes, I heard him say these words as loud as he told me to move here.  So I am waiting and trying to be patient.  In January of this year 2017, the word Patience popped into my head.  Someone at church told me,  “God gives me a word every year and that is my word for what I need to work on in my life during the year.”  I had never had a word but hearing this was a Ah Ha because the word Patience was a word that was in my head from God so this explained what I was supposed to do with it.  Her telling me this was no coincidence.  It was an explanation.  It was going to be the real reason of what my life’s journey was going to be this year.

Today at church was the perfect message for me.  The Preacher said,  “Are you waiting on God’s answer or are you waiting on God?” Do you want the answer from God more than God?  Mmm…this is going to be good I thought.  We all know that everything in life takes time but why is it that when we pray to God for help we don’t want to wait on his timing?  Everything is in God’s timing; although, we want it now!  As in Isaiah 40:31, Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.  They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.  Waiting brings patience and spiritual growth.  Waiting is not passive it is active.  We think if we are waiting we are doing nothing.  That is not true.  God wants us to be a in place of worship while we wait.  One of the Biblical meanings of the word worship is Worth Shaping.  This means when you pray to God for something and you know you have to be patient for his answer you have a Gap in the middle that has to be filled.  In this gap, God wants you to be in a state of worship.  This is a time in your life where you should be worth shaping.  This is a time where God is watching to see are you worthy of your answered prayer.    During this gap, what are you doing?  Sin is easy to fall into this gap with you.  Waiting causes bitterness, negativity and fear.  These are forms of sin.  “God doesn’t hear me!” “God doesn’t care about me!” “Nothing will ever change!” “Why is this happening to me?” “What did I do to deserve this?”  These are sinful gap responses that we fill in our heads to keep us from having faith and patience.  I admit I have had those thoughts too because I pray and nothing changes so I feel like giving up.  I have heard them all in my head so many times thus being narcissistic about my own problems and my own needs which I think no one understands or cares but God understands and God cares.  Sometimes we can’t see anything but what is going on in our own lives.  We fall into the gap which becomes a huge black hole that we must climb out of to have patience.  Waiting is allowing you to grow up in your faith. God wants us to wait expectantly.  The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him – Lamentations 3:25.  He wants is to wait confidentially.   And the Lord answered me, write down the vision.  Make it plain on tablets so he may run who reads it – Habakkuk 2:2.  Write down what God has told you.  Journal his words in writing so you can go back and be reminded of what he has told you.  Hold them in your heart because what he has told you is true.  The gap is not a black hole which is there to sink your worries and cover you with fear.  It is a time of faith that you must rely on God’s promises and hold them near.  God’s timing is more important than his answers as it says in Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose and in Jeremiah 29:11, For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Be patient good things are coming your way!

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